..death is nature's way of saying "Your table's ready" :.

After much thought, i now somehow know why i am personally (and badly) affected by his demise. Having gone through so much in life, i can relate to what he might have faced prior to his decision to end his own life. 

He made people around him laugh despite his own bitterness deep inside. He ensured their happiness persists while his own sorrow embroils inside.

Isn't that what we often do to the ones we love? A mother would willingly forgo her meal just so her son could have that extra drumstick. A sister would gladly freeze just so the younger one could stay warm throughout the night. Don't we all?

I know I do. Out of love.

A few of my friends have told me i almost never fail to give good advises or even help to ease their problems in times of need. My family calls me a joker and i always try to add laughter wherever i go.

But at night when noone's near, who hears my heart's woes?

It is by nature that perhaps i choose to be that way. I don't pour my heart out to people. That's just not what i do. I think i exist in this world to help make people be better and feel better. Not the other way around. I bottle up my feelings and i cry myself to sleep whenever i face problems. Then the next day, nothing ever happened and nobody needs to know.

Lucky for me, even though i am not entirely pious, i still hold strong towards my faith and i believe God is always there for me and all the problems i face is just to make me stronger. If i don't have Him by my side, i think i would have done the same years back and i wouldn't be here today.

That's why moral support is very essential and necessary if you want your loved ones to always know there is always someone out there looking out for them and willing to lend a shoulder to cry on.

Today, tell someone you love that you care and you are only a phonecall away if they need you...

..when life hands u lemons :.

This is my very first post. How's the blogname btw? I find it kinda smart. Haha.. Anyways, this blog shall encapsulate the lives of myself and my dearly beloved friends and family from my POV.. Basically whatever comes to mind, shall be registered here to capture moments of our lives be it happy or gloomy...hence the blogname. Til the next blogpost..